Make It Happen...

Completely scary to feel that your true goal in life may never be attained. As much as I've wished and longed for this in life, these past few days, it's been gnawing at me just how much I want to be a professional actress. Whether it's because my acting teacher really seems to be loving the work my scene partner and I are doing, or how much I feel like I'm learning from that class...I'm more and more inspired everyday.

Everytime I pass by a studio, I feel like THAT'S where I'm supposed to be. In the back of my mind, though, is my mom's voice nagging about how impractical a career choice it is...but this is why I continue along my post production path. However, when people ask what I do, and I tell them, they're more excited about my job than I am. I always feel like a fraud as I tell them about my career...because I have to appear just as excited. Well, not that I really HAVE to. I COULD share my passion for acting with them. I usually choose not to, though, as I don't need to hear them say "Yeah, you and everyone else in L.A."

And, of course, that's what makes it scary. There are so many people out here with dreams of acting. And whether you have talent or not doesn't always matter. Every producer, director, casting director is looking for something different. You never know what that might be.

It's a game of chance; win or lose, I'm throwing myself in...wish me luck.