This past week of being sick has brought on a sense of loneliness. Missing a week of work and two days of class, not spending the usual quality time with my boyfriend, and not seeing my phone light up with a call or text message today, nor seeing my email filter in any friendly emails or even junk mail - I all of a sudden feel isolated from my "norm."
The one half of my acting class that I was close to feels further from me, and it's such a different vibe compared to Boot Camp 1. The new people of BC2, interacting with them, and having them have no idea of who I really am - mixed with the BC1-ers who DO know me. I can't even put all my energy into getting to know and getting comfortable with the new people because all of my energy has been sucked away from me by this cold/bronchitis infection/whatever I have. Being among the people in BC2 is such a foreign feeling.
Work...even though I'm still drained and sick and have a fever that's up and down, I still have to go to work to pay for the upcoming holidays/trips/...and well, classes! Can't afford to take off more days unless I'm on my deathbed. That's a depressing thought.
So, again, that leaves no time for my guy. I most likely won't have quality time with him till we head east. That's right ~ not even the weekend because I'll be working. Gotta love it. Life.
Hate this feeling of isolation.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
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